When I was around eight years old I got my butt kicked by a boy we'll call Billy Stark. Billy Stark was a scary kid who was extremely tall and muscular, had been held back a grade at least twice, and had a five o'clock shadow in the third grade. For all intents and purposes, one scary kid compared to me, a short little blonde girl, trembling in her karate gi in the first sparring match of her life while about thirty kids surrounded us in a circle waiting eagerly to see someone, anyone go down. I remember seeing Billy Stark advancing on me like some sort of predatory animal and thinking to myself that my desire to experience my favorite movie,
The Karate Kid, was about to be way more Daniel-gets-creamed-on-Halloween-by-the-Cobra-Kais and way less Daniel-cranes-his-way-to-victory-in-the-all-valley-karate-tournament. No Mr. Miagi came to my rescue and needless to say I went home with my tail between my legs and never returned to karate again.
Being unhappy in my body and feeling overwhelmed as to what to do about it was a lot like the feeling I had when I got worked over by Billy Stark. 100 pounds ago I felt embarrassed, hampered, held back, unsuccessful and beaten down by the worst opponent I could face: myself. But, as I started to lose weight I started to feel the inner fighter, the one who motivated that eight year old to try karate in the first place, start to emerge. I spent hours punching the heavy bag in the gym, taking kick boxing classes, and doing P90X Kenpo DVDs. I'll do just about any exercise and I like to keep things varied, but combat-related workouts always give me the most reward and get my blood flowing just a little bit more. My sister loves to run, my friend Lakshmi loves Zumba the most, but fighting is evidently my thing.
One night last week I was leaving the grocery store and out of the corner of my eye I saw that a new dojo had moved into the shopping center closest to my house. Being too chicken to actually go inside, I called them from my car and talked to a very friendly girl who welcomed me to come try out a free class.
Nervously a few days later I stepped into class, looking around at all the other students for potential Billy Starks and finding none. I didn't know anyone there and, like the first day I started this journey in the gym, I felt out of place and self conscious, but that inner fighter wouldn't let me hang back. And I must say, it was awesome and I made some discoveries:
- A year and a half of strength, cardio and cross training has given me strong muscles, endurance, flexibility and balance. I could hang in karate!
- All those hateful squats have created powerful legs that can kick.
- Working on the heavy bag and lifting weights have created strong arms that don't hit like a girl.
- Zumba and Step have given me coordination and more mobility in my waist and hips; better to land those out and in kicks.
- I should listen to my inner fighter more often.
We all have our Billy Stark moments that hold us back. Look how many times Daniel got beat down in
The Karate Kid but he was victorious in the end because he channeled his fear and fought back. For me, the journey to fight back has added karate to my exercise regime, but your fight doesn't have to be that literal. You fight back every time you step in the gym, no matter what form your workout takes. You fight back when you make healthy choices with food, no matter how bummed or grouchy it makes you. You fight back even in the times that you feel scared or intimidated or embarrassed but you keep moving anyway. Amazing things can happen when you channel your inner Daniel-san.